Jesus came for the broken hearted...Look at the Beatitudes...
3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4 Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
5 Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
7 Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called children of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
They all aim at people that are broken, hurt, suffering, meek....
I had this little revalation the other Sunday at a Church service when I felt God more because I was feeling hurt and I was raw and real with my emotions and how I felt. Normally I find the blockage in worship and connecting with him is not dropping our crap and worshipping him for who he is and allowing him to come into our circumstance. I think of it like a fight between two people, let's say parents. If they don't both tell the truth about how they feel they aren't going to get anywhere or grow more close, more intimate.
I have had a pretty rough year this year, and looking back I have grown in my relationship with God with most in those tough times. When I was getting panic attacks at the beginning of the year I had no choice but to seek God (although this was hard sometimes because of the anxiousness but I had a plan that everytime I felt anxious or had a panic attack coming on I would quote Phillippians 4:6 to myself and let God's truth change the situation.
God is a Father and he loves us, he loves me, his heart cries out when he sees me upset or hurt and wants to come to me in my brokeness. Like a Mother or Father that sees their Child fall over and runs to them. But we must let him help us, let him love us.
I thank God that he calls sinners, the world is a judging world and it is nice to know that God seeks us! (All of us, cause we are all sinners!) And doesn't judge but loves us and through loving us we get helped out of our crap.
I only overcame anxiety because I let God, I let him love me, I cried out to him, litterally, I got on my knees and humbly told him I can't do this in my strength and that I need all of his strength and none of mine because "I give up", giving up is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength and a sign of allowing God, who is all powerful to take control of my life and put things back into order (and he did, I was healed)....
Tuesday, 6 December 2011
Wednesday, 30 November 2011
CAUTION: Deconstruction in process
Read this at your own expense, I may offend :)
Ok, so I can't concentrate on my Marketing assignment because I need to let this little rant out, here it goes!
I feel like I have been living a lie. I know I haven't been, it is just that my eyes have been opened and God is taking me on a journey where I am challenging all the beliefs, life routines, things I do and now I am asking questions of them. Things as simple as "Am I a bad Christian if I miss a week of Church?" or "Am I doing this because it is what a Christian does?". All my thoughts make me seem like I am rebelling against the Church (not my Church, the Church in general). But it isn't I am re-looking things with eyes of - What would God want and what DID Jesus do? Just from spending a lot of time in the gospels I have noticed that Jesus didn't come to create programmes and encourage people to cross the line so they don't go to hell, then sign up to a Church (go to 3 new believers courses) then join 6 ministries and give your life to the establishment of the Church and "build" the "kingdom" (kingdom being translated to growing the church and building more "ministries" --> Where did that come from anyway? I thought Jesus had one ministry and it was to Love people?). Nope, he came to freakn LOVE people! With NO AGENDA! They just ended up following him because they couldn't resist his love!
They saw who he was (not the title he carried, remember the priests didn't believe he was the Son of God) they followed him because of who he was. And the miracles he did, that was out of the intimacy he had with his Father and the love that overflowed out of that. I heard a saying "nothing is birthed without intimacy" and well that means practically like Children can't come into the world without a man and a women....you know the story... and the same with God, nothing can be birthed without us and God being in a relationship.
So I challenge you, strip back all your beliefs that you have been conditioned to believe and go back to the Bible and see what Jesus said and did about everything, then re-construct. It's great, my life has changed and to be honest is more exciting because it has challenged me to live for a cause greater than filling seats on Sunday. It has challenged me to love people, 24/7 with no agenda and then see the miracles overflow out of that.
Ok, so I can't concentrate on my Marketing assignment because I need to let this little rant out, here it goes!
I feel like I have been living a lie. I know I haven't been, it is just that my eyes have been opened and God is taking me on a journey where I am challenging all the beliefs, life routines, things I do and now I am asking questions of them. Things as simple as "Am I a bad Christian if I miss a week of Church?" or "Am I doing this because it is what a Christian does?". All my thoughts make me seem like I am rebelling against the Church (not my Church, the Church in general). But it isn't I am re-looking things with eyes of - What would God want and what DID Jesus do? Just from spending a lot of time in the gospels I have noticed that Jesus didn't come to create programmes and encourage people to cross the line so they don't go to hell, then sign up to a Church (go to 3 new believers courses) then join 6 ministries and give your life to the establishment of the Church and "build" the "kingdom" (kingdom being translated to growing the church and building more "ministries" --> Where did that come from anyway? I thought Jesus had one ministry and it was to Love people?). Nope, he came to freakn LOVE people! With NO AGENDA! They just ended up following him because they couldn't resist his love!
They saw who he was (not the title he carried, remember the priests didn't believe he was the Son of God) they followed him because of who he was. And the miracles he did, that was out of the intimacy he had with his Father and the love that overflowed out of that. I heard a saying "nothing is birthed without intimacy" and well that means practically like Children can't come into the world without a man and a women....you know the story... and the same with God, nothing can be birthed without us and God being in a relationship.
So I challenge you, strip back all your beliefs that you have been conditioned to believe and go back to the Bible and see what Jesus said and did about everything, then re-construct. It's great, my life has changed and to be honest is more exciting because it has challenged me to live for a cause greater than filling seats on Sunday. It has challenged me to love people, 24/7 with no agenda and then see the miracles overflow out of that.
Wednesday, 2 November 2011
A Big Fat RANT!
Why should we be hungry for God? Isn't it much less effort and easier to be a Christian, go to Church, be in a life group and sing some songs in worship. And have Christian friends...
Spending time with God, reading the Bible and praying involves taking time away from our lives. We could be spending that time with Church friends or planning the next big Church event. We could spend it practising guitar for the worship team or you tubing all the Christian bands that have "made it".
What is the point? Leading the Christian life is way easier than living like Christ.
Recently I have been reading the Bible with a different pair of eyes, I have started looking at it realisticly...Here are some of my thoughts:
1) Jesus is awkward.
2) Jesus makes you get uncomfortable
3) Love affects someone most when it costs the person giving it
4) We live a watered down version of the gospel.
1) JESUS IS AWKWARD.
As I have been reading Matthew with eyes of realistic-ness (not sure if that is a real word....) I have been thinking about these things happening in real life, which I suppose makes sence because they did. Like for example the story of Jesus healing the blind man in John 9 where he gets mud and rubs it in his eyes, imagine walking along the street down by the beach and this Chrsitan nutter guy called Jesus grabs some watery sand off the floor and rubs it in this blind mans eyes then tells him to go wash it off himself... To be honest I get freaked out with just someone else with me evangelising with words let alone doing weird miracles...
But don't get me wrong, and think the mud is the secret to blindness. No, only doing what the Father is doing is the key. See Jesus was in such a intimate relationship with his Father that he heard clearly from God and did and the man was healed.
And the kingdom of God is opposite to the kingdom of the world, hense the mud. So of course Jesus is going to do something that seems mental to us.
2) JESUS MAKES YOU GET UNCOMFORTABLE...
Following on from above, he makes you get uncomfortable, life is sweet when you don't feel challenged and need to change. As humans we are searching for ways to make our life more comfortable, and easier.
I can be a bit of a clean freak and love cleaning my teeth, I can't stand not brushing them I sometimes brush them 3-4 times a day if I am home. Same with showering, I love feeling clean and comfortable, somedays I can't wait to get home and into fat pants. I love hot water bottles, blankets and wheeties (and couches with a cup of tea...) ahhh bliss. As current I am in my PJs under a blanket on my bed all comfy with a couple of books. In my natural habbitat. I feel COMFORTABLE here. Alone, reading the word and resting my body. But life isn't about finding our comfortable place.
Speaking of being comfortable as I was just about to write this section I got a call from my lovely friend Molly asking to stay at my place and I had a split second to think "Ahhh I am in my zone with my books in my own little space I don't really want disturbance" or "of course!" and I choose the later. Being Molly I would always choose to say yes just cause I love her company but you get the jist of what I am saying. He gives us opportunities to stay in our comfort zone or step out of the boat. Last week I promised myself I would talk to a homeless person in the next week, now I actually haven't been down lampton quey to do so yet but I am still planning on it cause it will be uncomfortable cause well there will be everyone walking past and probaly judging...
3) LOVE EFFECTS SOMEONE THE MOST WHEN IT COSTS THE PERSON GIVING IT
Don't you love that warm fuzzy you get when someone has re-arranged their schedule to fit you in, or taken the time to write you a letter or taken you out on a date that has involved thought and time to plan?
That is when love touches people, I heard a saying "fire always falls on sacrifice" I think it was Bill Johnson who said it...anyway what it means is that when there is sacrifice involved that is when it starts the fire!! So when we give up something of ours for God or Jesus dies on the cross for our sins the fire falls on that and it is like there is now a supernatural element to it.
In the context of my life this is like the difference between me fitting things into my life nicely and giving to people up to the point where it hurts or is awkward or is uncomfortable. For me this is like choosing not to ask someone out for coffee who probaly needs a talk because I feel "weird" about it... or don't think I know them enough to ask them (that really should be a good reason for a coffee!) it is love when I push past those things and do them anyway cause then the fire will fall on it.
When I am down to my last $10 with two days til payday and a young person asks me for $5 and I say yes. It is pushing beyond which keeps us comfortable that is love. And of course in all this God calls us to look after ourselves because our bodies are temples so we should not do so much that we burn out, and to not do so much that you burn out you must allow the relationship between you and God to be the life line and listening out for what he is saying to do and not to do.
I have discovered this week that I feel the most alive and full of joy, love and happiness when I am giving out to people and engaging with his call in my life. Not when I am "relaxing" at home...
4) WE LIVE A WATERED DOWN VERSION OF THE GOSPEL
As Children we read and learn the Bible stories and that is what they are...stories.
But we are not to stay in that place of "stories" we are to engage with the Word as if it is real. Which kinda makes sence, because it did happen and is real.
The Church today (and this is a huge generalisation of the Church as a whole and probaly very critical) is living a watered down version of the gospel and settling for "cool services" "commitment numbers" and how many famous speakers or worship bands we can get to visit our Church. We are settling for the Worlds version of Church to be honest. We have watered Jesus down so that non christians feel comfortable because the lifestyle difference isn't a hue change instead of challenged to really engage with how Jesus lived and calls us to live.
Be CHALLENGED to wear a difference pair of eyes when reading the word and allow the gospels stories to challenge you to live the life Jesus did.
Spending time with God, reading the Bible and praying involves taking time away from our lives. We could be spending that time with Church friends or planning the next big Church event. We could spend it practising guitar for the worship team or you tubing all the Christian bands that have "made it".
What is the point? Leading the Christian life is way easier than living like Christ.
Recently I have been reading the Bible with a different pair of eyes, I have started looking at it realisticly...Here are some of my thoughts:
1) Jesus is awkward.
2) Jesus makes you get uncomfortable
3) Love affects someone most when it costs the person giving it
4) We live a watered down version of the gospel.
1) JESUS IS AWKWARD.
As I have been reading Matthew with eyes of realistic-ness (not sure if that is a real word....) I have been thinking about these things happening in real life, which I suppose makes sence because they did. Like for example the story of Jesus healing the blind man in John 9 where he gets mud and rubs it in his eyes, imagine walking along the street down by the beach and this Chrsitan nutter guy called Jesus grabs some watery sand off the floor and rubs it in this blind mans eyes then tells him to go wash it off himself... To be honest I get freaked out with just someone else with me evangelising with words let alone doing weird miracles...
But don't get me wrong, and think the mud is the secret to blindness. No, only doing what the Father is doing is the key. See Jesus was in such a intimate relationship with his Father that he heard clearly from God and did and the man was healed.
And the kingdom of God is opposite to the kingdom of the world, hense the mud. So of course Jesus is going to do something that seems mental to us.
2) JESUS MAKES YOU GET UNCOMFORTABLE...
Following on from above, he makes you get uncomfortable, life is sweet when you don't feel challenged and need to change. As humans we are searching for ways to make our life more comfortable, and easier.
I can be a bit of a clean freak and love cleaning my teeth, I can't stand not brushing them I sometimes brush them 3-4 times a day if I am home. Same with showering, I love feeling clean and comfortable, somedays I can't wait to get home and into fat pants. I love hot water bottles, blankets and wheeties (and couches with a cup of tea...) ahhh bliss. As current I am in my PJs under a blanket on my bed all comfy with a couple of books. In my natural habbitat. I feel COMFORTABLE here. Alone, reading the word and resting my body. But life isn't about finding our comfortable place.
Speaking of being comfortable as I was just about to write this section I got a call from my lovely friend Molly asking to stay at my place and I had a split second to think "Ahhh I am in my zone with my books in my own little space I don't really want disturbance" or "of course!" and I choose the later. Being Molly I would always choose to say yes just cause I love her company but you get the jist of what I am saying. He gives us opportunities to stay in our comfort zone or step out of the boat. Last week I promised myself I would talk to a homeless person in the next week, now I actually haven't been down lampton quey to do so yet but I am still planning on it cause it will be uncomfortable cause well there will be everyone walking past and probaly judging...
3) LOVE EFFECTS SOMEONE THE MOST WHEN IT COSTS THE PERSON GIVING IT
Don't you love that warm fuzzy you get when someone has re-arranged their schedule to fit you in, or taken the time to write you a letter or taken you out on a date that has involved thought and time to plan?
That is when love touches people, I heard a saying "fire always falls on sacrifice" I think it was Bill Johnson who said it...anyway what it means is that when there is sacrifice involved that is when it starts the fire!! So when we give up something of ours for God or Jesus dies on the cross for our sins the fire falls on that and it is like there is now a supernatural element to it.
In the context of my life this is like the difference between me fitting things into my life nicely and giving to people up to the point where it hurts or is awkward or is uncomfortable. For me this is like choosing not to ask someone out for coffee who probaly needs a talk because I feel "weird" about it... or don't think I know them enough to ask them (that really should be a good reason for a coffee!) it is love when I push past those things and do them anyway cause then the fire will fall on it.
When I am down to my last $10 with two days til payday and a young person asks me for $5 and I say yes. It is pushing beyond which keeps us comfortable that is love. And of course in all this God calls us to look after ourselves because our bodies are temples so we should not do so much that we burn out, and to not do so much that you burn out you must allow the relationship between you and God to be the life line and listening out for what he is saying to do and not to do.
I have discovered this week that I feel the most alive and full of joy, love and happiness when I am giving out to people and engaging with his call in my life. Not when I am "relaxing" at home...
4) WE LIVE A WATERED DOWN VERSION OF THE GOSPEL
As Children we read and learn the Bible stories and that is what they are...stories.
But we are not to stay in that place of "stories" we are to engage with the Word as if it is real. Which kinda makes sence, because it did happen and is real.
The Church today (and this is a huge generalisation of the Church as a whole and probaly very critical) is living a watered down version of the gospel and settling for "cool services" "commitment numbers" and how many famous speakers or worship bands we can get to visit our Church. We are settling for the Worlds version of Church to be honest. We have watered Jesus down so that non christians feel comfortable because the lifestyle difference isn't a hue change instead of challenged to really engage with how Jesus lived and calls us to live.
Be CHALLENGED to wear a difference pair of eyes when reading the word and allow the gospels stories to challenge you to live the life Jesus did.
Friday, 7 October 2011
Overwhelmed by Love ♥
I can't sleep. And it is because I'm in love!!
With who you say? A cute boy, Dan Carter maybe? Nope... He is actually quite old...and wise...
Aproximately 2011 years old. Tall, brown skin, deep eyes, beard....
His name is Jesus.
For the past couple of weeks now I have been having trouble getting to sleep and I thought it was due to an increased coffee consumtion due to increased amount of catch ups over coffees the past while, but I realised tonight, it was Jesus knocking on the door of my heart saying "let me in, my beloved". I just hadn't opened up the door til tonight.
So, I grabbed my journal and went for it, prayed out my true heart and feelings towards God, concerns, worries, everything and lied there and asked for his presence... And I got it. I felt him in my heart, like that feeling of being in love but more overwhelming. I had soft tears, not those tears of despair, but tears of "Daddy I love you!"
Funny thing is, I have spent the past week freaking out about moving, money stuff involved with that, assignments and other things and now have just realised it is now Friday and everything has come together and I don't need to worry cause Daddy has it under control. I am sitting here now, thinking wow, I couldn't have worked everything all out better myself, I am glad I have given it all to you!
He said to me in my Spirit that he wants to take me to a new place, that it is going to be different to what I already know of him. And that it is a new season.
That stirred in me excitement and freaked out-ness...But, I will not allow the scaredness to dictate my actions. I will walk in faith.
Tonight is my last night at home with my parents (at least for this season, it's not as if I am getting married tomorrow! So I will probaly move back in at some stage...) so I am a bit nervous about moving out, with not being exactly the richest person in the world it is a bit of a faith step and with Zeal and all this other exciting stuff going I feel like there is so much going on that moving is just stupid and doesn't make any logical sence... but then neither do miracles. Jesus isn't logical to be honest. And I feel like I am stepping in the right direction with all of it so I just have to trust in God he has it all sussed out! Living by faith!!
A couple of months ago I spoke at FITE Youth about Luke 9 and the story of the disciples wanting to follow Jesus and how they had to be prepared to leave things behind, not look back etc and all of which required faith in Jesus that it was the right thing to do, and it is like I am now having to live out this message I preached!
Anyway this blog probaly makes no logical sence, I am surviving off about 4-5hours sleep and 2 coffees today.
I pray God's overwhelming love over your spirit...
Amen and God Bless!
With who you say? A cute boy, Dan Carter maybe? Nope... He is actually quite old...and wise...
Aproximately 2011 years old. Tall, brown skin, deep eyes, beard....
His name is Jesus.
For the past couple of weeks now I have been having trouble getting to sleep and I thought it was due to an increased coffee consumtion due to increased amount of catch ups over coffees the past while, but I realised tonight, it was Jesus knocking on the door of my heart saying "let me in, my beloved". I just hadn't opened up the door til tonight.
So, I grabbed my journal and went for it, prayed out my true heart and feelings towards God, concerns, worries, everything and lied there and asked for his presence... And I got it. I felt him in my heart, like that feeling of being in love but more overwhelming. I had soft tears, not those tears of despair, but tears of "Daddy I love you!"
Funny thing is, I have spent the past week freaking out about moving, money stuff involved with that, assignments and other things and now have just realised it is now Friday and everything has come together and I don't need to worry cause Daddy has it under control. I am sitting here now, thinking wow, I couldn't have worked everything all out better myself, I am glad I have given it all to you!
He said to me in my Spirit that he wants to take me to a new place, that it is going to be different to what I already know of him. And that it is a new season.
That stirred in me excitement and freaked out-ness...But, I will not allow the scaredness to dictate my actions. I will walk in faith.
Tonight is my last night at home with my parents (at least for this season, it's not as if I am getting married tomorrow! So I will probaly move back in at some stage...) so I am a bit nervous about moving out, with not being exactly the richest person in the world it is a bit of a faith step and with Zeal and all this other exciting stuff going I feel like there is so much going on that moving is just stupid and doesn't make any logical sence... but then neither do miracles. Jesus isn't logical to be honest. And I feel like I am stepping in the right direction with all of it so I just have to trust in God he has it all sussed out! Living by faith!!
A couple of months ago I spoke at FITE Youth about Luke 9 and the story of the disciples wanting to follow Jesus and how they had to be prepared to leave things behind, not look back etc and all of which required faith in Jesus that it was the right thing to do, and it is like I am now having to live out this message I preached!
Anyway this blog probaly makes no logical sence, I am surviving off about 4-5hours sleep and 2 coffees today.
I pray God's overwhelming love over your spirit...
Amen and God Bless!
Sunday, 18 September 2011
Open the eyes of my heart Lord...
"The Lord is calling for servant lovers who will call in the outcasts, who will go into the dark corners of the world and compel them to come home. And they will come. Who will go and leave their life of comfort and call in the broken? Who will go and be a learner? Who will go amoung those who are mourning and lay their life down for Jesus? The Lord wants his house to be full. It is time for us to go to the poor, to the broken, to the homeless, to the dying, and to the lonely and call them in..."
-Heidi Baker (Compelled by Love)
What really is being like Jesus really about? What does it really reflect to be like him, to do what he did, to love like he loved, to walk in the purity he walked in?
I think it all begins at the bottom, when all things are stripped away, when there is nothing else to rely on but God, when there is no resource or ability to bring hype, when there is no social group to put the outcasts in, when there is no food to feed the hungry, when there is no technology to distract us, no friend that knows how to comfort your hurts properly, and no comfortable environments to sit in where life has the ability to become less than what God had intended for it.
You know God has intended so much more for everyone. He always wants us to be growing to know Him more, for our hearts to be enlargened, for us to be taking on more territory for him, for us to be in relationship with more people, to be living in the prophecies that have been prophecied over us.
I heard this awesome quote the other week, "You are either in or out, the fence belongs to the devil".
This has messed with my head! I know so many people (and have been there myself) where the fence hasn't
necessarily been "un-decided about God" it has been more of a "un-decided about fully giving EVERYTHING to God" because when the devil has you coming to Church weekly and ticking all the boxes but not choosing to engage with the word, prayer and all of which grows your relationship with God and enables you to hear what God has for you and empowers you to carry out those special plans has for you, he has you trapped, stuck and comfortable with not giving everything...
What is everything?...well, duh it is everything! It is not just your heart, it is your plans for your future, your desires to earn heaps, desires to hurry up and find the one and get married, the list is endless...It is living each day, choosing his will over ours.
It is reflecting the life Jesus led, which takes me back to the beginning of this. Jesus lived everyday in sacrifice, humility and love and ended his life in the same way.
And this is the life he has called us too, it is the life he has called me too. To call in the lost, to bring hope to the needy, to love on the outcasts. And it requires me to be decreasing and for enabling him to increase in me every second of the day.
So Lord, open the eyes of my heart, may I see your children the way you see them, to love them as you love them, increase in me and help me to decrease, help me to choose you and your will everyday and to believe in the promises you have for my life. In Jesus name, Amen.
Thursday, 15 September 2011
The beginning of a new adventure!
Almost a month ago I went to a confrence with other leaders from my Chruch (The Rock, Wellington) where Pastor's Bill Johnson, Danny Silk, Martin Steel and Worship Leader Kim Walker-Smith gave amazing testimonies of God. Danny Silk talked about dreams and about how God our Father wants to treat us just like any other Father would want too. And Kim Walker talked about her journey of how God had everything all planned out and it all happened in his timing and not her's.
I have spend a lot of the past 2 years wondering what was going to become of my life, I have had heaps of prophecies over me that I am going to do BIG things for a small person and at Manifest I was prophecied over that I would be someone who would bring people out of things and into new things and that I would bring messages to people that would encourage them and stir them up and that I would work with youth....
I remember when she was praying all this (she was a random from America, who didn't know me from a bar of soap I might add...) I had a couple of tears and just knodded and smiled because it was just so right and what I felt God has been leading me into and growing me for.
I got back from confrence with an opportunity to work at Zeal as a female youth worker, working with teenagers that are stuck in "crap" and need bringing into newness. (The job description pretty much fitted exactly with was prayed over me) and I felt this sence of excitement that I was stepping into something big, scary, exciting and challenging. I of course prayed about it and talked about it with a couple of trusted friends and felt to take the job. Funny thing is I was askedby them about it about 2 months before but had kinda put any thoughts or chances of it on hold cause I had just started uni and wasn't in the head space to think about it. But God's timing is all pefect, over those 2 months he was preparing my heart for it as well, I went through some broken times which I feel has made me more compasionate towards others and will greatly help with this new role.
I felt God is going to use this role as a step into my dream to start a youth ministry in Feilding one day, don't know how it will happen, but I have learn't through all this that God does!! All I have to do is get to know him more and he will reveal things to me the more I get closer to him, kinda like two best friends sharing secrets and trusing each other with stuff :)
And to be honest, I couldn't have made this all happen in my strength, it could only have been God's!
So, if you have dreams, visions, or just want to do something huge for God, just remember we are all his vessels, it s not about us being super duper and doing awesome things, it is about serving a BIG God who wants to use us to do mighty things and the more we get to know him the more of his dreams etc he entrusts to us. Don't be afraid to dream, seek first the kingdom (kingdom being not the building of the Church, but heaven on earth, your relationship with God etc) and He will give you the desires of your heart. (Pslam 37:4 and Matt 6:33)
Have a think about the prophecies, prayers, words of encouragement you have been given and pursue them. They are more than just words :)
I have spend a lot of the past 2 years wondering what was going to become of my life, I have had heaps of prophecies over me that I am going to do BIG things for a small person and at Manifest I was prophecied over that I would be someone who would bring people out of things and into new things and that I would bring messages to people that would encourage them and stir them up and that I would work with youth....
I remember when she was praying all this (she was a random from America, who didn't know me from a bar of soap I might add...) I had a couple of tears and just knodded and smiled because it was just so right and what I felt God has been leading me into and growing me for.
I got back from confrence with an opportunity to work at Zeal as a female youth worker, working with teenagers that are stuck in "crap" and need bringing into newness. (The job description pretty much fitted exactly with was prayed over me) and I felt this sence of excitement that I was stepping into something big, scary, exciting and challenging. I of course prayed about it and talked about it with a couple of trusted friends and felt to take the job. Funny thing is I was askedby them about it about 2 months before but had kinda put any thoughts or chances of it on hold cause I had just started uni and wasn't in the head space to think about it. But God's timing is all pefect, over those 2 months he was preparing my heart for it as well, I went through some broken times which I feel has made me more compasionate towards others and will greatly help with this new role.
I felt God is going to use this role as a step into my dream to start a youth ministry in Feilding one day, don't know how it will happen, but I have learn't through all this that God does!! All I have to do is get to know him more and he will reveal things to me the more I get closer to him, kinda like two best friends sharing secrets and trusing each other with stuff :)
And to be honest, I couldn't have made this all happen in my strength, it could only have been God's!
So, if you have dreams, visions, or just want to do something huge for God, just remember we are all his vessels, it s not about us being super duper and doing awesome things, it is about serving a BIG God who wants to use us to do mighty things and the more we get to know him the more of his dreams etc he entrusts to us. Don't be afraid to dream, seek first the kingdom (kingdom being not the building of the Church, but heaven on earth, your relationship with God etc) and He will give you the desires of your heart. (Pslam 37:4 and Matt 6:33)
Have a think about the prophecies, prayers, words of encouragement you have been given and pursue them. They are more than just words :)
These Word of the Day things are freaky sometimes!
This is just what I feel I have been going through lately...God Is Getting You ReadyWritten by Bob & Debby GassWednesday, 14 September 2011 '...first sit down and estimate the cost...' Luke 14:28 NIV SoulFood: 2 Cor 1-4, Matt 25:1-13, Ps 78:56-64, Pro 20:25 |
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