I feel like God is teaching me how to be everyday looking to Him. In the last week I have felt him tugging on my heart saying "look to me! look to me!" everytime my mind starts wondering to worry or things not of Him. I now understand what he means by he is a jelous God! I have had a bit of a revealation on what it means to be always moving forward in life and not settling for the moment your living in. I have a few "life decisions" to make at the moment including moving out and flatting and a new job which is more than paid income but a chance to impact young people's lives and to be quite honest I have no idea what to think about either of these things because they are both such changes in my life than as it is at the moment. But God is always moving us forward and opening doors and closing them... So I need to be open to it if God does want me to walk into those things.
I want to be always seeking Him first and doing what he would have me do and never settling for the present and things and crap I am stuck in. To be changed and moulded by God requires one to be humble. Without humility we cannot admit to God being right and us being wrong. Humiltiy is putting God as more important than us, as human's we always put ourselves first and humiltiy is placing God back in his rightful position.
When stuck with the crap in the present, sit down, humble yourself, lay everything in your life aside and ask God "what need's changing in my life? how do you want to mould me today?" .... doing this will allow you to always be moving forward :)
Tuesday, 30 August 2011
Sunday, 28 August 2011
Trusting the one who loves you the most ♥
I always avoid writing on here when I feel like I am going through things I don't understand, and then I start to get through something and God reveals something I feel I have to share with people so they too can have it revealed too them.
I feel like at the moment God is teaching me how to trust Him with my life. Now, this sounds pretty cliche but it's deeper than what it sounds like. I have always been a worrying and stressed person, it has become my identity.. God didn't create me like that though, he say's to not be anxious about anything but to pray about everything.
I heard Kim Walker-Smith's testimony last week and she went through a time where she didn't know what to do with her life but she seeked God and put her trsut in him that he had it all worked out and would work out for the best and it did. I feel like I have been trying to make things happen in my own strength, life/future things, relationships etc and I have worried about them not working out right unless I make them happen and put all MY energy and efforts and power into them. I got this revelation that God is GOD and he LOVES me more than I can comprehend and he is MY DAD and wants the best for me! He knows me better than I know myself and has the perfect plan for my life in every area. And in that I do not have to worry because I can TRUST the one who loves me.
This revalation has released me from worry, stress, anxiety, heart break, dissapointment, doing things in my strength and most of all it releases me into walking in his ways and being able to focus on him because from focusing on him comes the ability to see how he see's and then from that walk in what ever he would have me walk in. It is like as I look to God it makes everything clearer!
Everyday I must remember, God my Father LOVES me and wants the best for me, trust Him. And as worries come up I must pray and release them too God and trust that he will reveal to me the way to go.
I feel like at the moment God is teaching me how to trust Him with my life. Now, this sounds pretty cliche but it's deeper than what it sounds like. I have always been a worrying and stressed person, it has become my identity.. God didn't create me like that though, he say's to not be anxious about anything but to pray about everything.
I heard Kim Walker-Smith's testimony last week and she went through a time where she didn't know what to do with her life but she seeked God and put her trsut in him that he had it all worked out and would work out for the best and it did. I feel like I have been trying to make things happen in my own strength, life/future things, relationships etc and I have worried about them not working out right unless I make them happen and put all MY energy and efforts and power into them. I got this revelation that God is GOD and he LOVES me more than I can comprehend and he is MY DAD and wants the best for me! He knows me better than I know myself and has the perfect plan for my life in every area. And in that I do not have to worry because I can TRUST the one who loves me.
This revalation has released me from worry, stress, anxiety, heart break, dissapointment, doing things in my strength and most of all it releases me into walking in his ways and being able to focus on him because from focusing on him comes the ability to see how he see's and then from that walk in what ever he would have me walk in. It is like as I look to God it makes everything clearer!
Everyday I must remember, God my Father LOVES me and wants the best for me, trust Him. And as worries come up I must pray and release them too God and trust that he will reveal to me the way to go.
Monday, 1 August 2011
It has been a while...
So it has been a while since I last stuck something up here. And a lot can happen in one person's life in a month.
In this last month of my life I feel like I have been grabbed against my will and pushed around a bunch of bullies. I have felt that feeling of "what have I done to deserve this pain" and the feeling of not being able to exscape.
About 3 weeks ago I felt the deepest sence of hurt that I have ever felt/can remember ever feeling. And it is crazy to think that right now 3 weeks later I can be sitting here at my desk with a sence of peace. I strongly believe that God heals and that he is our provider of ALL things. In the past few weeks he has provided me with comfort in the midst of pain and a sence of peace.
I had this revelation that sometimes you just have to get to such a broken place to get desperate for God to intervene in your circumstances or in your heart or emotions. I remember having this big cry the other week where I physically felt pain in my body from the pain I was feeling, I felt desperate so desperate for God cause there was no one that could understand me in that moment I was in. In that moment no one in the whole world would have felt the same pain I felt because no one else has lived my life and felt the same pain I felt. The only other person in the world that understood my pain was Jesus. Yes, other people in the world have properly had worse things happen to them and felt more pain then me BUT no one else has been me or is me and has the same emotions or heart as me. The only other person that can FULLY understand my pain in Jesus cause he took ALL the pain of the world upon himself and felt it all.
It sucks that sometimes you have to get to those moments where you are so incredibly desperate for God cause it would be cool to just be desperate for him in the happy moments too but I guess we are all on a jouney...
Romans 8 - We share in His sufferings then share in His glory.
Through suffering and pain we experience what Jesus experienced on the cross, we will then experience sharing in his glory. For Gold to be refined ir must go through the fire.
My Dad always say's how he takes joy in suffering, just like the Aposlte Paul did. I have started to do this too and look ahead to what he is calling me too and who he is moulding me to be and what he is refing me to be, what he is burning off me....
In this last month of my life I feel like I have been grabbed against my will and pushed around a bunch of bullies. I have felt that feeling of "what have I done to deserve this pain" and the feeling of not being able to exscape.
About 3 weeks ago I felt the deepest sence of hurt that I have ever felt/can remember ever feeling. And it is crazy to think that right now 3 weeks later I can be sitting here at my desk with a sence of peace. I strongly believe that God heals and that he is our provider of ALL things. In the past few weeks he has provided me with comfort in the midst of pain and a sence of peace.
I had this revelation that sometimes you just have to get to such a broken place to get desperate for God to intervene in your circumstances or in your heart or emotions. I remember having this big cry the other week where I physically felt pain in my body from the pain I was feeling, I felt desperate so desperate for God cause there was no one that could understand me in that moment I was in. In that moment no one in the whole world would have felt the same pain I felt because no one else has lived my life and felt the same pain I felt. The only other person in the world that understood my pain was Jesus. Yes, other people in the world have properly had worse things happen to them and felt more pain then me BUT no one else has been me or is me and has the same emotions or heart as me. The only other person that can FULLY understand my pain in Jesus cause he took ALL the pain of the world upon himself and felt it all.
It sucks that sometimes you have to get to those moments where you are so incredibly desperate for God cause it would be cool to just be desperate for him in the happy moments too but I guess we are all on a jouney...
Romans 8 - We share in His sufferings then share in His glory.
Through suffering and pain we experience what Jesus experienced on the cross, we will then experience sharing in his glory. For Gold to be refined ir must go through the fire.
My Dad always say's how he takes joy in suffering, just like the Aposlte Paul did. I have started to do this too and look ahead to what he is calling me too and who he is moulding me to be and what he is refing me to be, what he is burning off me....
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